I first opened this website whilst sitting on the sofa cuddling my new baby boy - how poignant it felt to be reading about a lost son when cuddling my own. Of course I cried a lot and made Elliott's fluffy baby hair all wet! I was only 11 when Lawrence died and sadly never really got to know my oldest cousin. Elly on the other hand was a very familiar face and I guess,, because I am a sister, and saw so much of Elly, it was always from her perspective that I viewed Lawrence's death. The first thing that struck me when I opened the website was the music - there was 10 years between us but it would be the Stone Roses that I would want played at my funeral - so there - we had something in common and never new it till now, thank you Elly. My last memory of Lawrence was at that weird house that you lived in (2 houses knocked together), i must have been about 9 and when Lawrence came liz just ran around the house screaming "Hayley fancies Lawrence, Hayley fancies Lawrence" So I am sure his last memory of me would have been a little bit annoying! Although that was my last living memory of Lawrence I can remember telling Elly about a dream that i had maybe about 7 years after he died, where he was sitting on the end of my bed and telling me that he was doing ok. He came over and gave me a hug and I said I was sorry that we never really got to know each other. He said it was OK and that he was happy. I am not a particularly spiritual person but when i woke up the dream was so vivid in my mind and I had such a lovely feeling that I like to believe he decided to pay me a little visit. I used to live just off the Uxbridge road and never knew this is where Lawrence died. So - Elly thanks for setting up this website, what a wonderful way to remember your brother I am glad that I know more about him and hope to learn more as the contributors increase. Much love, your cousin Hayley xxx