I love him so much but he is gone. These words hurt and a pain so deep and long is felt inside me. It seems unreal He can't be dead He has run away again and will be back soon but deep down I know this isn't true and the tears come flowing back. The pain will never go away. A part of me has gone I feel lost without his love He looked after me, he was my strength, my hope, my brother, Gone I wrote this shortly after Lawrence had died.